Tuesday, June 27, 2017

Illustration by Anna Birkedal

In summer 2012, Maggie, a seven year old, black chihuahua and dachshund mix, literally fell into our laps. We weren't looking to adopt a dog, but Maggie quickly won us all over with her soulful, sweet brown eyes and quiet but infectious personality. Slowly, as she got to know us, Maggie's personality blossomed, and instead of quietly following us around, she would demand to be the center of attention, bark when she wanted to go on a walk, and we absolutely loved her for it. Maggie exemplified every positive trait of dogs - she was fearless, loyal, always excited, always happy to see us. She genuinely helped me and my family through the most difficult years of our lives.

On May 5th, my sweet Maggie passed away from cancer at age 11. And though it's now been a month and a half, it still hurts so much. Thus why I have avoided writing this post - I still don't want to believe it. I miss her so much, and I keep thinking of all the moments I wasn't able to catch of her on video or in photos (I have a bunch on my phone, but very few on my DSLRs since she never stood still) - I'm so afraid of forgetting. Like how she would click her water dish when she needed water, or how her ears would perk just so when she heard a noise below her...

Knowing we got her for only four of her eleven years has been incredibly hard. I am so heartbroken I wasn't able to spend 11 amazing years with her, but even though this has been so painful I am so glad I was able to know this truly, strong, feisty little dog. I miss you Maggie...

Illustration by Anna Birkedal was a sweet surprise that left me in tears! Thank you so much Anna - I'll never forget your kindness in such a sad time.


  1. Maggie was always super photogenic and adorable.
    Dogs are literally the sweetest creatures we could ever have in our lives.


  2. I'm so sorry for your loss. She looks similar to my baby Tallulah who is 10 years old. She's had a lot of health problems so I really dread the day. I feel for you and am sending lots of hugs. xoxo

  3. I'm so sorry Kailey. :( Losing a pet is so hard because they really feel like a member of the family, and you're so used to them being around you all the time so it feels like the rug gets pulled out from under you when they're not around anymore. Even though you only had her for four years, I'm sure they were the four happiest years of her life. Death and losing loved ones, pets or people, is never easy but unfortunately it's just a part of life and the only thing that makes you feel any better is time. <3 I wish it were easier but unfortunately it's something we all have to deal with at times. Let me know if there's anything I can do for you lovely xx

  4. When I first read this text, I was so ... " Oh gosh it's really like me, I will really feel like this If it happened ..." ( and what's could be funny in the story is that my own dog lady is called Maggie too ). I'm very sorry for all the pain you fell. I hope that all Maggie's souvenirs will stay in your memory sweet Kailey <3 I wish you will feel better <3 ( sorry for my bad english >w<)


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